I have been observing myself quite often and planning my actions accordingly. As you know, I have always been challenged with focusing my will to have the integrity to carry out the actions I set forth. This causes me upset because I continually disappoint myself. To remedy this, I am focusing my will to stay in the present moment with the understanding that my higher self knows best and will make decisions that work. I still have the planned actions set forth, but instead of forcing my ego to complete them (usually resulting in a persisting resistance), I notice that they are there and then let my higher self decide. Doing it this way seems like less of a chore and my ego doesn't feel like it has to do all the work. In other words, I am starting to negotiate with my ego more.
All the while, if I start to feel anxious, I remind myself that nothing is wrong and attempt to generate a loving presence to overcome the fear.
Love, Jason
