The Plan

For over two years, I have been working on and revising a plan of action to achieve my short and long term goals.  It is a good plan with built in daily actions for accomplishing nearly everything I want to see show up in my life.  There are week s that I am on track with it and weeks and weeks when I simply ignore it altogether.  I am not sure what has caused me to think this is a good idea. 

I have always been a procrastinator, doing what is comfortable and feels good at the time, thereby delaying what needs to be done.  I have been carefully observing this in myself for some time and watch as it eventually causes me anxiety and depression.  It has gotten to the point where even the comfort zone doesn't feel good anymore because I know what is coming after.  I have been meditating on what to do and have, time and time again, been told to listen to myself.  Follow my plan!  I am my own best medicine I guess, so the plan is to do just that.  Follow the plan and when the tasks become challenging or uncomfortable, understand that I don't need to feel that way.  I can choose to take on those tasks with ease.  Eventually both doing the work with ease as well as continuing to push myself will bring about a joyful being.